I DID NOT FAIL!

Yesterday was a really tough day! In fact, this whole month has been extra difficult. I’ve been very emotional, and the reality is that I miss my daughter Meagan. This battle within impacts so much around me, including my part-time job working for a financial planning firm.

So yesterday at work, I screwed up royally. I misunderstood the urgency of a situation and…failed…right before I was about to shut down to head home. My mistake hit me hard and threw me deep into spiritual weeds. I could not see passed my mistake, nor could I hear anything but “FAILED.” The perfectionist in me rules with an iron fist often and yesterday was no exception.

But this morning during my quiet time with the Lord, reading the Word, and journaling, the dark clouds dissipated, and HE spoke to my heart. This is what I want to share, and I hope it lifts your head as well as your spirit:

First, if we give HIM the chance with a humble, listening heart—HE speaks! This morning, My Sovereign Lord reminded me that I took my eyes off HIM yesterday. I am not here to please man because I will surely fail. Since the crash, all GOD ever asked of me initially was to "get up and pursue HIM.” Then when HE placed this job in my lap after six years, HE challenged me to “get up, show up, and give HIM my best every day.” Yesterday, I failed a task! I did NOT fail My Lord! I have faithfully done what HE has asked of me during this terrible, grace-filled journey—GET UP, SHOW UP, GIVE HIM MY BEST! And I can say with a broken yet tenacious heart that I have done that! I have done that!!!!

So, thank YOU My Lord for yesterday’s failures, because YOU revealed Yourself to me “in the weeds” and reminded me that I did not fail YOU. I hear You: “Keep my hands to the plow, my eyes fixed on You, and keep running to You—for it is there I find my salvation!”

Thank You for NEVER letting go, even when my own strength fails me. Thank You for “stilling the storm within to a whisper and hushing the waves of the sea.” I love You Lord! I am of sound mind because of YOU!

My quiet time this morning was based on Psalm 107:1-9, 23-32:

Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good;

His love endures forever.

Let the redeemed of the Lord tell their story—

those He redeemed from the hand of the foe,

those He gathered from the lands,

from east and west, from north and south.

Some wandered in desert wastelands,

finding no way to a city where they could settle.

They were hungry and thirsty,

and their lives ebbed away.

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,

and He delivered them from their distress.

He led them by a straight way

to a city where they could settle.

Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love

and His wonderful deeds for mankind,

for He satisfies the thirsty

and fills the hungry with good things.

Some went out on the sea in ships;

they were merchants on the mighty waters.

They saw the works of the Lord,

His wonderful deeds in the deep.

For He spoke and stirred up a tempest

that lifted high the waves.

They mounted up to the heavens and went down to the depths;

in their peril their courage melted away.

They reeled and staggered like drunkards;

they were at their wits’ end.

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,

and He brought them out of their distress.

He stilled the storm to a whisper;

the waves of the sea were hushed.

They were glad when it grew calm,

and He guided them to their desired haven.

Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love

and His wonderful deeds for mankind.